Belarus Monologue

Why won't you look at me?
What did I do wrong?
I said I was sorry!
You know I regret it.
I was so scared after I left you!
You had also abandoned me as well.
I just couldn't take you leaving!
I didn't know how else to ensure you would never leave me!
That was the only way I could think of!
I never really meant it!
I'm not really like that!
You know that!
I'm not the only one at blame, though.
You were just as crazy as I was back then!
You were a sadistic monster who was just as clingy to those three boys as I was to you!
You were a horrible demon that everyone feared!
So many still fear you, and hate you, and despise you, and despise me.
Oh brother, I'm so sorry for what I did.
I'm so sorry.
I can never undo it.
Please, brother, open your eyes.
Please, breathe again.
Please, don't leave me!
I'll be good!
I won't be crazy!
I'll be the perfect little sister, just please open your eyes!
Please, don't leave me!
Oh, brother, I didn't mean to.
Oh, brother, I'm so sorry.
Oh, brother, I love you.
My brother, what have I done?